Hi!
A bit different than my usual updates, this one is elaborating on a personal quiet time spent with God one morning.
It moved my heart with what God showed me & I thought this just might encourage you too.
Here we go:
I was sitting outside of an apartment complex where we are currently residing. It was a courtyard, full of colors, drying clothes, and little children in the corner playing in the dirt.
I was sitting out there, simply looking to be still, sit with the Lord, and soak in the sunshine & goodness of God before the day started.
Insert from Journal:
“Hmm. Today I am not sure what I feel God. I know you are real, alive, and well, but sometimes I just don’t understand. I’ve got a lot of questions for you.
What’s on my heart today: 1) Desiring to know your goodness more. 2) I want to understand you more 3) Desiring to walk in a steady, complete, and total peace 4) What is my purpose here God? Today? Tomorrow? Years down the road?“
Many questions were going through my head, I was pondering on the Lord, pondering on things I do not always understand, while hungry & curious to know more and be close to Him.
In those same moments of writing these thoughts down in my journal, I looked up to see a little girl, big eyes, wild hair, dark complexion, and about 3 feet tall, approaching with curiosity all over her face.
With great joy & delight I said, “Hello!”
My arms were open wide. & so were hers.
She came & gave me the most wonderful hug & just smiled at me. I could not help but smile back & think of how precious this girl was. Though we did not even speak the same language she was still so excited about getting to know me-as I was towards her too.
After our hug, I stuck my thumbs up to her & with such a big smile, she did the same back at me.
I could not stop smiling or take my gaze off of her–even as she walked away. She was just too precious.
As she walks away I felt as if I heard a soft & sturdy voice say: “Kailey, the way you feel about that girl is just a glimpse of how I feel about you–especially when you bring your questions & thoughts to me. Your hearts desire to simply know me, is so special, just like that little girl.”
Undone. Overwhelmed with the Father’s heart. Filled up. Delighted in.
Those few moments were enough to sustain the rest of my day–walking in Joy. Receiving a glimpse of the Father’s heart for me. It changed something within, it literally filled me up!
& here’s the thing. The same goes for you, friend. The same goes for you.
God loves you. He is a good father. God speaks to us. It’s not always loud & booming, but it will satisfy your spirit-I promise. I believe God enjoys spending time & building that relationship with us. We were made to be loved & to love.
When is the last time you simply took a moment to pause, & ask God a question? When is the last time you paused, and asked God what he loves about you? I know I sure could & hope to do that more often.
Psalm 139: 1-18 says:
“You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
WOW. That’s A LOT of thoughts!
God’s got some wonderful thoughts about you filled with love, care, affection & compassion. It is my understanding that our perfect Heavenly Father desires to speak that affection & care over you not just today, but on a daily basis. Try it, go for it! See what happens 🙂
May this encourage you today–much love sent to you, friend!
More blog updates to come soon.
-Kailey
Love it Special K!! Thank you for the beautiful reminders of how much God loves each of us, and created each and everyone of us with a plan and purpose!!!! Can’t wait to see you in December!!!
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Awe love you so much momma! Can hardly wait to see you so soon.
Oh I just love YOU!!!!